My Metaphysical Journey

I was reading a group post on thought.com and it was some person who who thinks that being gay should be illegal. Who is this person to tell me that it’s right for them, meaning the government, to tell me how to live my life? Ignorance is all over the place. I understand that people don’t agree with my “lifestyle”, but in reality it’s not a lifestyle it is a part of who I am. It’s no different than me being an artist or having brown hair and blue eyes. I’m not changing this part of me because some ignorant person thinks that homosexuality is an abomination. They can spew scriptures at me all day, but it won’t change the fact that I am the way I am and they can blame it on G-d because he/she/it made me this way.

These people have a right to their opinions, but so do I and I won’t be silenced. I can try to educate them all I want, but if they aren’t willing to even listen, then what’s the point. I am not changing nor am I suppressing the fact that I am attracted to women. I would not have a fulfilling relationship with a man and believe me I have tried. I considered myself straight for many years before I came to accept the fact that I am a lesbian. I refuse to have another relationship with a man, not because they have no value, but because I wouldn’t be true to myself. Maybe one day people will open their eyes and see that we are human too and we have the right to happiness. I’m not hurting anyone by being gay. I don’t flaunt who I am nor do I hide who I am. Most of my friends, family and coworkers know that I’m a lesbian and they are okay with it for the most part.

My mother accepts that this is who I am even though she doesn’t like it. She doesn’t make me feel ashamed nor does she make rude remarks. She has come a long way in accepting that I’m a lesbian. She did the typical thing of thinking that it was a phase for the first 2 and half to 3 years. I think it was difficult for her because there were no warning signs stating that this could be a possibility. I hid it so well from myself that others couldn’t possibly consider that I may be gay. Everyone including myself thought I was straight. Only after I started learning who I was, was when I figured out that I had an attraction for women. Before that time I was who everyone wanted me to be, not the person I was meant to be.

My advice is to be true to who you are. Hate me if you want, but I know that your hatred is born out of ignorance. My hope for those who hate gays, lesbians, transgendered people, that one day you will open your eyes to the truth and realize that we are human beings. We have a right to exist and we have a right to live happy, fulfilling lives.

Peace and Respect,

Rachel